Hope: A Life Changing 24 Hours 24″ x 48″ Acrylic on Canvas

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Hope: A Life Changing 24 Hours
24″ x 48″
Acrylic on Canvas

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I dedicated a large canvas to a very small creature that I loved dearly. Please, let me tell you my story about Hope.

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I was working one day, washing windows, when I discovered a baby flying squirrel underneath a grill with a smashed paw. I fell in love with her instantly. I took her under my care, determined to bring her back to health. I kept her warm and safe the night through.

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After a long and tiresome night, I took the little creature to the vet to have her foot inspected. She was infected, cold, and trying her hardest to stay alive. The vet informed me that the chances of her survival were very slim. I prayed, oh how I prayed for this little ball of love to survive and make it.

It had been 23 hours since I had found her when I decided to take a nap with her on my stomach, wrapped up a blanket. When I awoke, she had passed away. I had never felt such intense pain than I had then in that moment. I fell to the floor, bawling. I couldn’t believe it. Even though I had a feeling she wouldn’t live, I had so strongly believed that this little girl was going to make it. That my prayer and care would save her. The medication would heal her. The formula would give her strength. My love would help her live, to fight.

But she didn’t.

On the 24th hour, I buried Hope.

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I miss her to this day. I prayed for God to give me a second chance. I had so much sorrow, so much hurt and anger. I didn’t know what to do with myself. I was inconsolable.

The very next day, heeding the advice of Tom (my boyfriend at the time), I went to my studio. He was with me moments after I lost her and held me the night through. The next day he said, “Lauren, paint it out.” I pulled my largest blank canvas I had and stared at it. There were no more tears for I had cried them all the night before. There were no more words for I had screamed them all at the empty sky the night before. There was no more love for it was all resting in the dirt 2 feet under. There was no more Hope for she had died in my arms.

I looked at my hands. I looked at the canvas. My heart looked toward Hope. I then painted my favorite piece to this day, in dedication to the creature I was entrusted with to love, heal, and protect. A piece of me died with her that day. A piece of me came to life as well.

Hope: A Life Changing 24 Hours

Released: November 7th, 2014

~L’ren Knorr

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